Showing posts with label Fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Fear. Show all posts

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Jet Skiing and My Personality

So the jet ski dude said: "If you know how to drive a motorbike, it'll be easy."

It's really ironic... I had my stint as a trainer at work and gave my share of assurance to my trainees but I hate it when other people give me one!

My turn on the jet ski came and after the jet ski dude gave me other instructions, I was on my own. I stood, pulled the accelerator to max and flew like a rabid wolf on meth. I effin' don't know where to go and I don't care... the strong wind was trying to knock me down but I held tighter. I was going too fast that my jet ski was bouncing up on the lake water.

I went far away from the bank and saw myself at the heart of the lake. My excitement for speed intensified to unimaginable heights.

I indulged in great speed. I was shaking because I don't know if what I am doing is alright but I went ahead and enjoyed the freedom.

I was free... no one was there to hear me yell "YEEEAAHH!" and tell me that I'm splitting their eardrums.

I was free... no one was there to see me burn the engine and tell me to slow down before I fall down...

... and it happened.. I took a sharp curve and my jet ski rotated 360 degrees but I was still on. It scared the shit out of me. I am wearing a life jacket and the safety clip is in place... I stopped looked around me and I started feeling scared... really really scared.

I realized that I am lost... I was disoriented... I didn't know where I am, how I got there and which way is back.

I realized that the water that I am raping was effin' deep... I drowned... because of my worries. What if I fell in the water and never floated? What if some sort of a water creature suddenly emerged from underneath, pulled me down and ate me.

My heart beat like a jackhammer...

I was so confident I won't fall down until I almost fell. I wanted to get out of where I am at so again, I fled in haste. On my way back, I never slowed down... still screamed on the top of my lungs and enjoyed.

"Oh, kamusta?"
"Putang ina, nakakaadik pala mag jet ski! Syet, gusto ko pa!"

Already getting a good grasp of my personality? Yes, that's how I am ;)